OTNV Ch.3 - The Matriarch (Part 6)

    1.5:

    The undergrounds are quiet. I took a nap on the couch after talking with 2 because I just wanted to sleep on my thoughts, to see if I still felt the same when I woke up. It's... a big decision, and I still have to ask 30 about it. I mean, I doubt he'll say no, but I just want to discuss it with him anyway. I think that I also just really want to hear his voice. Since I talked to 2, I've been feeling very attached and "hug-y," which is weird. I just can't wait for him to come home... I saw him this morning but for some reason I just miss him ridiculously (maybe it's just because I want to talk to him about this baby thing). This came up so suddenly, but if 2 was right about being able to do this again, I really, and surprisingly, don't want to object.
    Just a few moments after I wake up, I hear a door squeak open, so I pull my blankets off of me and get up from the couch. I stand up slowly, looking around. I brush some dust off of me and run my fingers through my hair a little, trying to fix it a little after laying on it. 
    Through the doorway on my right, I see 30 standing on the opposite side of the room, taking off his cufflinks and removing his jacket as he usually does whenever he gets home. I just look at his face… he just has this radiant look of happiness in he eyes, and of course, a big grin slapped across his lips.
    I open the door to our bedroom, stretching out as I enter. He glances over at me when he hears footsteps coming towards him.
    "Well, hello there." he says, still smiling happily.
    "Hey yourself."
    I walk up to him slowly and slip under him arm. After what I just figured, out I kind of just want to be close to him. He returns the hug and rubs my back a little. I just shut the world out while he's close to me. 
    "I love you, 30... so, so much."
    "I love you too, you know that. Are you alright?"
    "I'm fine, just feeling super attached today."
    "Well, that's fine by me. Be as attached as you want." he jokes. He brushes the hair out of my face and kisses me. "Your affection is always welcome."
    I just smile, not knowing what to say.
    "So, how the appointment with 2 go? Is everything looking okay?"
    "Yeah, everything is good -- no issues whatsoever." I tell him.
    "Well, that's great!" he says. He looks at himself in the mirror again, scratching at something on his face. He just ignores it after a few seconds. "You look like you've got something on your mind -- just saying. If you need to talk to me, just say so. You know I'll always be here for you no matter what happens.
    "Yeah, I... need to talk to you about something." I say, scared to make eye contact.
    "Well alright." he turns to look at me. "Are you okay? Is something going on?"
    "No, no. Everything is fine, I just finally had a realization today...and... I just wanted to ask you something a-about... your opinions." I rub my face out of worry.
    "Opinons? On... what, exactly?" He looks a little bit concerned. 
    "Like... um, if we were to ever have another baby."
    He pauses, trying not to smile.
    "Are you pregnant?" He steps a little closer, almost ready to give me a big, excited hug.
    "Oh, no, I'm not. But when I was with 2 today, we just did the regular exam, and then he went on telling me about the reinforcements they fixed me up with back when I had the twins. He said they were holding up great, and that they're strong enough for me to have another baby if I wanted to, without anything horrible happening. And when he said it... it just sounded so nice. I don't know what's gotten into me, but I just think of it and it makes me feel so... secure."
    "Wow." he says, smiling big. "I never thought I'd hear you say that."
    "Yeah, I really couldn't believe I was thinking it."
    He just stays quiet for a few moments. Grinning, thinking. 
    "You... you really are a trooper. After all the bad things that happened, I can't believe you still want this. I don't mean that in a bad way at all, I swear -- I'm actually overjoyed that you've been thinking about it."
    "Yeah, it came on quick. I've had this weird feeling for almost a year now, and I never knew what it was. A couple of months back, when we thought I might be pregnant, I was almost excited... and then we found out that I wasn't, and I got really disappointed. And today, when 2 said I could have another baby, realized what that feeling was."
    "In truth, I was on board a few months back. I wouldn't have been upset at all if you found out you were." he says, with some sympathy.
    "So..." I look at him sheepishly, scratching the back of my neck.
    "You say it first. I want to hear you say it." he crosses his arms jokingly.
    "I... want to have another baby." My shoulders feel a lot lighter once the words come out, and an almost embarrassingly large smile appears on my face.
    He smiles too, and seems like he's trying not to laugh from how happy he is. 
    "What about you? Is that something you'd be okay with?" I ask.
    "As long as you're safe, I wouldn't mind it one bit." 
    He hugs me really tight, lifting me off my feet. I start laughing, and he spins me around until he starts to get dizzy. 
    Something's changed, but it's the good kind. I close my eyes and start looking forward to what'll be a good future ahead of us.